I just thought I would do a quick post on how I'm feeling. It's currently 3.54am and I am still awake. this is about the 4th night in a row that this has been the case. I think the first night I struggled because I was on a midnight finish at work and it takes me a long time to wind down after work to the point I want to sleep. Anyway as the week has gone on I have gotten more and more tired and started feeling unwell....probably due to the tiredness. Yet I still can't sleep. I'm getting some crazy headaches now and just don't feel right at all and because of this I'm too scared to go to sleep. I get like this now and then. Anyway its like I'm too scared to go to sleep incase I don't wake up again. Crazy I know. I mean for one thing if that did happen its not like I'm gonna know about it. It's getting a little silly now. I have been like this for a long time I think I may have mentioned in a previous post that when I was younger I used to be scared to go to sleep incase the house went on fire and then I got really really scared of the wind so if it was a windy night I would pretty much be crying myself to sleep thats how much I hated it. I'm not scared of the dark or anything like that I think I'm almost afraid of sleep. I was always the child that wouldn't sleep incase I missed anything. I'm at the stage I need to get over this though and find a way to just shut off at night and go to sleep. What is really bizarre is that I can sleep in the day time no bother at all if I'm tired nothing is stopping me, but at night no matter how sleepy I am I will not go to sleep quickly. I have been in bed for probably about 6 hours now and although I am so tired I am still kinda wide awake. Sometimes I struggle if I know I have to get up and ready for a 6am start at work, I worry I will sleep in, but I haven't even had that reason for the past few days as I have been on later starts. I don't want to take sleeping pills because as I said I sometimes have super early starts and don't want to risk sleeping in. I really don't know what to do, this has been a problem for so long it is pretty much normal for me but more recently I have been getting to sleep at a more decent time like around midnight, but this week it has gone all wrong.
Do you have trouble sleeping and overthink things like I do? Do you have any tips on how to switch off and get to sleep??
Ok time for another attempt at sleepy time :)